I feel a bit better now.  I'm getting back to my 'Scorpion roots.' I've been planning what I'm going to do at AX the past couple of days.
It looks like I will have to miss the Marvel vs. Capcom 2 tournament on Thursday because I would rather attend the Kajiura Panel.  Friday looks to be a complicated day for me.  I'm going the Taniguchi & Kuroda Panel and I don't know if my friend is going to get me an AMV ticket.  Saturday looks like the the easiest day because I'll have voucher tickets for the Masquerade.  The only panel I'll be attending that day will be ABe's.  Sunday, I'll get a sketch from ABe if I can't attend the regular autograph session.
As for things I'm planning to buy at AX, I know I'm going to buy the perfect grade model of Eva Unit 01.  I doubt that I'll see it there, but I want to get my hands on Naruto gloves and a forehead-protector.  The rest I will try to save for the auction.
If all goes well, I'll be packing a Dell Precision Mobile Workstation M50 with me at AX and I'll try to update each night.

This past Tuesday, I sat down and watched all the Gundam Seed episodes I had(1-19).  I smacked myself right after 19 finished.  When I saw that a character on Gundam Seed was on NewType's most popular guys list, I doubted that it was worth watching.  I now understand why Kira is number 1 right now.  I really should have watched this anime a long time ago.
Earlier today I finished watching episode 22, and I'm glad that Kagari is starting to steal Kira away from that psycho bitch.
Gundam Seed has almost everything to get on my 'list.' The last deciding factor, so far, is who Kira will end up with:  Kagari, Frey, or Lux.

It's been five years.  What have I learned in those five years?  I look back at all that has happened.  From that, I have learned that nothing will change.  Since then, I have been living vicariously through anime.  I have learned that in real life:  there is no Honda Tohru for me; I can't become like Urashima Keitaro; I won't be forced into a relationship like Kusangai Kei; I won't dial a wrong number and have a goddess; and I won't find a girl who puts up the same facade as me.

My ethics are things that no one can change.  If they change, the reason it changed will most likely change because of something I read out of a book.  Hardly anything, besides writing, can change them.  My facade is what really blocks the path, but it is the single thing I will not give up.  Is it possible for someone to overcome the obstacle I have stubbornly kept in my way?  Probably, but I bet the chances that I meet this person is so small, that it is an insignificant number.

Last year, I didn't post anything on this day.  I think that, because I no longer have to go to school, I feel like I have a little bit more freedom to speak my mind.  I did have a evil/loner/over-confident look to keep up during my school life.  Now, I can open up a little more online.  I only know of one person that sometimes goes to my site, that I know in real life.  I respect him a lot, even though he is an ass all the time.  I think I'm rambling now.  Back to what I was saying...This day has a special meaning to me, and I like to spend this day at home with little or no contact with the outside world.  Of course, that doesn't really make it any different than any other day.  It's just that I'd like to spend this day reflecting on the second significant event of the second '6-year' event that occurred five years ago.  It was a horrible experience, but I never want to forget it...

I officially checked out of high school on June 12.  I will be attending some school to get A+ and MCSE certification starting sometime in August-September.  I will most likely be getting a laptop because of this.

AX looks good.  Even though I live only 30 minutes away from Anaheim, I'll still be staying at the Marriot.  The group of guest that was announced is lacking the popularity that I was expecting.  The creator of the Naruto manga would have been a huge bombshell for me, but I guess that won't be happening.

I feel relieved that my checking out of high school was easier to do than I thought.  I am done with high school at only 17 years of age.  An unofficial transcript shows a bunch of As, Bs, and one C spread across 3 years.  If you think you have what it takes to quit high school early and still succeed, then go get a CHSPE certificate like I did.  Info here.

In Chapter 172, Sasuke wakes up after a treatment from Tsunade.  Sakura hugs him and cries.  Naruto is saddened by this moment, but is somewhat happy for Sakura...This totally pisses me off!  It should be Naruto X Sakura!  Not Sasuke X Sakura!

I finally watched Battle Royale after months of searching for it on IRC.  I eventually gave in and got it of Kazaa.  It has become my favorite movie of all time.

So this is my last week of high school.  I feel like crap.  
This is also last week for me to make final decisions for AX hotel.  My friend and I are for sure going, but two other people who said they would come, might not make it.  It all depends on one guy's grades.  

Ayu-sama...
Uguu~

It seems that the last time I will have seen the girl of my dreams, was last Wednesday during my passing period from 3rd to 4th.  Right now, I would probably describe my mood as super easily irritated.  A lot of little things are pissing me off.  I think I'll be better around the 20th of this month.
The past week, in California, it has been cloudy and cold.  This is in June and it's fucking sprinkling.  Thank you.  I think Ayu-sama was also sad for me and made it so the weather could convey my feelings of crappyness.

Tomorrow, I'll probably write up some series reviews.

So...it's over...Uguu~

I bought an air soft pistol today.  I think I stared and handled all the different guns for like an hour before I finally decided which one to buy.  
I spent most of the day at Frank and Son Collectable Show.  I had planned to do a few more series reviews, but I spent my time shooting my gun when I got home.

I got my final yearbook on Friday.  There is a two-page section in there that signifies the last act of Ayu-sama's offerings.  So far, in my life, I have had 3 gods: Buddha, Sephiroth, and Ayu-sama.  Buddha was the only one to hook me up with girls.  Sephiroth gave me courage, but he handled things in a very 'dark' manner.  Ayu-sama has been my god for just over a year now, and she still has plenty of time to show me her stuff.  Next year is the year that I see if my '666 theory' will come true.  Every 6 years something significant happens to me in my life.  I will see if Ayu-sama will help makes this happen.
This Thursday, I wonder what kind of state of mind I will be in.  The end is coming...

Last note provided by masa:

Over
by Ayumi Hamasaki-sama

I still remember your profile
When you were about to say something on that day
I'm sorry
For not having heard you out

I honestly love you
I didn't have a little more courage

And hid my tears
Though I knew
We would never be as we were
I parted from you waving my hand and saying "See you again"
I parted from you as usual

It is easier than we think
To let go of each other's hand
But it is difficult
To join hands again, isn't it?

I can't smile without you
I could not say just one word

The wind is cold
I'm in tears now
Now I know it's not me alone
Who feel the coldness
But seems too late

What is getting little by little farther by the distance?
Do I forget little by little as time passes by?
It's over

It was a treasure, wasn't it?
I wished to protect it more than anything else

The wind is cold
I'm in tears now
Now I know it's not me alone
Who feel the coldness
But seems too late

What is getting little by little farther by the distance?
Do I forget little by little as time passes by?

Good-bye, you never fade in my memory
I didn't even say good-bye to you clearly
It's over